am i an aspie?

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i have no friends, and i dont want any friends.


i have compulsions such as scracthing matresses


i have weird thoughts to kill close family members


i have no photographic memory


i have trouble remembering things (i would have trouble remembering five minutes ago, sometimes i lose stuff and i dont know where i could have lost it), except if its a subject i'm interested in, andven then only if it is in a list (like list of academy award winners).


i get confused when two people tell me to a task im not familiar with in two different ways.

i never had any major trouble at school. i played truant in high school, but that was a manifestation of my ocd.

i have low self esteem because i'm not ver good at sports, so i tried to focus on education issues. unfortunately i didn't get the perfect score i was hoping for, and generally became more despondent.

i am 19, going on 20


i quit uni cause i hated the work and intereacting with other people somehow scared me

i'm not too big on routines, but i do find it annoying when something unexpected happens.

i have ocd

that is all


i'm just wondering if that sounded like traits of an aspie?

cause ive read that aspies have photographic memories, and that they also have meltdowns. i was always well behaved as a child and never had any meltdowns. i quite like shopping at shopping centres,

but i do not like looking into peoples eyes

You sound aspie to me. Keep in mind that it is a spectrum. Most aspies don't have every single trait. Besides, the photographic memory thing is a stereotype. I bet you remember a phenomenal amount of detailed information about your interests however.

That concerns me however. Many aspies are quite frustrated and harbor a great deal of animosity towards unsupportive/antagonistic family members and peers, sometimes a deep hatred. However, fantasizing about killing them sounds a bit extreme to say the least. You should get away from them if it all possible. If not, you should definitely seek help before these thoughts become obsessive to the point you might actually attempt to carry it out.

do all aspies ave meltdowns? i never had one


also, i am not going to kill anyoe in my family

cause i would regret it


get set to jail and will be arse raped

You don' t sound aspie to me.

can u please explain?

There would appear to be some concurrence of symptoms, but whether that is indicative of having one of the spectrum disorders (in conjunction with the OCD) or the intersection of some diagnostic criteria that might lean towards another condition such as antisocial personality disorder, as just one potential example. It would certainly merit further investigation.


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In case you are asking ME:



Aspies may LOVE the idea of friends. Your description sounds a bit anti social




Not necessarily AS




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Doesn't sound AS!




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THAT could be ASD

Still, you didn't talk about what you were like as a kid.

Too little information to say if you are. On that information you gave you could be anything. You could be you.

that is because i do not remember what i was like as a kid, except i was quiet.

ok, with the confusion with a task thing, i'll give an example.


lets say i wanted to bake a cake.

someone shows me one way

and then another one shows me another way
,going o
what will happen if i'm baking a cake i miht be confused how long to give it. one person said 20, but the other said 15? who is right.

nice clear instruction, prefferably in writing help. my brain cant handle long sentences.


with the upsetting of routines i'll give another example


i'm pretty lazy, so my days aren't usually filled with things to do. but i do like to know whats going on.


lets say i knew the day was going to consist of me watching dvds, going on the net, and having tea.

but lets say my parents invite someone over, on that day, not on the previous day, and dont tell me about it then i get nervous, and shy. because i wasnt expecting a sudden change in routine.



with the self-esteem thing, i have low muscle tone, an poor gross and fine motor skkills. this means i have poor stamina in my muscles, and that i have trouble playing sports. so, i try to better in other areas, such as academic. unfortunately i was not smart enough and i only got an average grade. this partly contributed to me quitting uni cause i couldnt get the stench of failure away from me, and i felt inferior.

also the social interactions did not help. i dont like it when people crticize me, and i dont like it when the praise me. it makes me feel funny inside. if i get criticized or praised, i obsess over the superlatives, and not the main message of the opinion.

evn when i was at high school, a good grade was vital for me. get a poor one and i would not try for the rest of the year, reasoning myself a failure. get a great mark and i would do very well for the rest of the year.

There is a good test to find out if you share more AS traits...Goggle ....RDOS test. It may not be,as yet, excepted as scientifically definitive but I found it to be very accurate for me. I scored 163/200 and was later DXed with 7 of the 8 traits of AS. So I believe it has validity.


If family members are being abussive to you, I don't think it is necessarily unusual to desire them to stop hurting you or even to want to hurt them back.....fight or flight instinct but not acting on it is a wise choice as it is like suicide...a permanite solution to a temporary problem. Eventualy you will be able to avoid them, as you become more independent and that is a more worth while goal.

The traits you chose to list do sound more schizotypical(not schizophrenic...they are different)....except that you like mall shopping...sensory nightmare to most(not all) of us.

I think it's less important to tell you behavior......no desire for friends then to explain why....ie....They have hurt me in the past, don't understand me, don't ever share my interests and bore me. If you could have friends who were nice to you and shared your interests and gave you plenty of time for your special interests without making you feel guilty for abandoning them....would you like those kind of friends?

i like mall shopping when i wanna get what i want.


the things that aspies hate about shopping malls doesnt concern me.

though i hate the slow walkers and the prams with wheels the size of a truck

You're not an aspie, but you frighten me, if that helps.

i dont know if i have it or not and im very confused. Some of my teachers say i probaly do other say there positive i dont..... i hope some one can help me

I cant remember ANYTHING i have no recalection of going on any vacations as a child but then my parents show me pictures of me on the trip.
i also cant remember where i put something 5 minutes ago


I studder sometimes


Cant regulate the tone of my voice ( people say im yelling and i dont relize it )


Get Migranes alot


Have trouble looking people in the eyes


BAD social skills



and i get alot of Panic attacks


Does that fit in with the symptoms those are only some

Umm... I think most people have thoughts of killing family members occasionally. It's pretty normal. Acting on them isn't, of course; but getting mad at somebody and thinking "Boy I really wish I could kill that person"? That happens to everybody, practically. It'd be weirder if it didn't happen. Anyway, it's a thought. People think all sorts of things that have very little bearing on reality. The only time to be worried about a thought like that is if you're going out and buying a gun or something.

Notice, by the way, the OP mentioned OCD? That kind of thought is a really common one to get stuck in the head of somebody with OCD, and needless to say it's pretty disturbing when something like that gets stuck in your head. So don't go and say he's going to get violent just because of a thought. Realistically, if you have OCD and that kind of an obsessive thought, it has nothing to do with violent intentions; more to do with a misplaced fear response that's attached to the idea that you might hurt someone you love, and gets triggered every time the thought comes up, which is pretty often because when you try not to think about something, you automatically think about it. The result is often the compulsion to avoid your family members, lest you impulsively kill them... the fact that this is completely unrealistic is of course well-known to the person, but the fear itself doesn't listen to reason. Fear almost never does.

I've thought of killing people before, myself, and I'd never do it. Probably the same with a lot of people here unless you're extreme literal thinkers. Come on--you're probably thinking of killing somebody just because I mentioned it!

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No. You sound like you have anti-social personality disorder.

No, you are not. You are in fact a unicorn.