calibama wrote:
Anyone else ever have one of those days when you feel like there's something missing? Right now my mind is racing with thoughts. I feel as though I was put here on this earth...the way that I am for a reason, yet I can't see the big picture.I feel so alone and I just can't seem to erase these thoughts from my head! Why am I here? Why are any of us here at all?I know the answer.It is to "above all else love one another" as the lord God commands which is so hard when you can't tear down your wall enough to feel love in return. A wall that was built and reinforced by abuse, pain, and sadness inflicted upon you by others throughout your life! I'm so hypersensitive to all the ills of this world. Sometimes I swear I can feel all the pain of it come rushing down on me at once. Some days the intensity of it makes me physically ill! The world is sick and it frustrates the heck out of me that when it's all said and done, I must come to grips with the fact that no matter how much I desire to do so,I just can't heal it! At least...not ALONE. I don't have the strength, the brains, or even the courage to! Then alas, at the end of each day I feel even more alone than the day before. I fear that soon there will be nothing left of my spirit...
Apathy can be lethal but, could one actually care too much?
Yes, one can care too much.
Caring too much about the ills of the world is something that contributed to my past depressions. I can relate to what you say about feeling like all the pain of it rushing down on you at once, I experience that all too often.
It sounds as though you don't know your purpose for being here and honestly, I don't think anyone has a definate purpose. You have to find what makes you happy and whatever that is, you should do. It may be hard to find something you like when all you see in the world is negativity, but once you do, it will be worth it.
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