Haven't been in a relationship for over 4 years now.
Ok, I don't try hard, but I never have anyone approach me in public trying to chat me up but I have seen people look at me and flirt, but thats it. Even in pubs, clubs etc.
Mostly people say nothing about me, occasionally I get very rude comments from people calling me fugly and worse.
When I try approaching people who flirt at me, I find it extremely hard to chat them up. As from bad experiences in the past when they have laughed at me, called me names. Sometimes girls liked to use/tease me even. They would flirt and say give me really naughty comments to fool me into thinking they fancy me. And when I tried to talk to them normally, not in a chatting up kind of way they weren't interested.
So I've kind of given up on girls. But I prefer guys anyway being bisexual.
But I have no luck with guys in real life either....
Online, a few guys and girls really fancy me, but are really really far away from me. Otherwise they said they would meet and date.
It sucks, I really miss not having a bf or gf, and starting to forget what it's like now. So the only thing that gives me a sexual thrill at the moment is my fetishes.
But my fetishes don't give me any love, caring, understanding, companionship. They are just purely extremely sexual and also a comfort and stress reliever for me.
So to be honest, I am lonely, as no one cares about me except my mum, and online people,lol.
But none of my real life friends care about me if I feel hurt.
So yes I'm pretty desperate now, but only if I like how they look and they are understanding, caring and have a nice personality.