yes- in different ways.
now i am lonely because i have noone to share things with. i do not speak to anyone anymore- unless its 'thank you' in shops. id odnt mind too much, but sometimes i long to have someone cuddle me and tell me it will all be ok,a nd kiss me. though i dislike people touching me unasked, i miss affection,as i have none at all.
i am also depressed that i am rapidly aging, with no prospect of marriage and a family, which makes my life seem pointless and bleak. i have lied to my family and said i have a well paid job- seeing them is stressful because of maintinaing the lies.
i never go out; i am too afraid to meet poeple. i dont 'seem' aspie on first meeting, but then on closer inspection seem 'odd', but not weird enough to be on sickness benifit, as i am.
i hide my symptoms well on cursory meeting, but i long to sit ina pub and drink and smoke and talk and laugh.
i am very lonely. though i dislike vast amounts of people, i long for friends and affection (though not the constant hugging/kissing type!).
its like food- i want to eat a lot of cherries, but it makes me very ill; id like to go out and live a normal life, but it exhausts me, depresses me; but i still want a little.