Mention a random thing you hate in life

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Yuh, so I start:
-My freezing bedroom

My legs "falling asleep"

Seems to be a theme developing here but anyways.

Somewhat similarly my arms falling asleep or fingers going white.
Cold temperatures anywhere.
Wool. I really do hate wool, and yet I don't mind sheep, dumb and smelly as they are!

not being able to have a cat here.

I live in a apartment and I can't have all my things here because I don't have room so I have them back in Montana still in two places, my parents and my grandparents chicken house. I think my brother is using my bookshelf because I didn't see it at my parents when I was there.

Sales calls.

Hate is a strong word, but those situations where
i sometimes just are going to do a simple fast
easy little 5-10 minute job, and 45 minutes later
its even more broken then it was to start with
+ i have a cut on a finger, cant find a tool i need
and thats starting to really annoy me to have to
spend so much time looking for it and then, i drop
the thing i`m working on onto the floor, bend down,
and hit my head on the way up again- before admiting
to myself i have been beaten by a detail and leave the
room hanging my head in shame feeling like an idiot while
mumbling something about s**t and crap and hell.
Those situations i think i might hate. And two days
later i go back and do it in 5 minutes no problem
*sigh* Good news is, i deal with them much, much
better then i did some years ago i now see sooner
that i have to just stop for now and come back later
instead of driving myself crazy and ruin the whole
day over nothing

unreasonable selfish self-centered people.

Changing cat litter.

life itself....
wow, that's not emo...*sarcastic*

The fact that the economy's so bad that both of my parents have to work. I miss the days when my mom was around 24/7, but that's not going to happen anymore...

Depression, AS, and all the things associated with them.

Having waited a life time for someone,
gave them most all my heart, a once in a life time dream,
only to find my self being betrayed in some of the worst of ways.
so cold, hows that for faith and trust issues.
hows that for wounds that may never heal.
and that person will be there forever as a constant reminder.
A hurt that will never die or go away.
A life time of waiting shot too hell.
A dream that will never be dreamed again.
A hope once used that is forever no more.
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I hate the fact that breastfeeding is so hard for me and Finnegan, because whenever I try to breastfeed him he screams and screams like he's in pain and thrashes around, and finally when he does start to suck on it not much comes out, probably. They said that my meds have risks breasstfeeding with but they say there are benefits too. Anyway, I tried giving him some formula before breastfeeding but he still gets frustrated and uses all his energy yelling and hitting me instead of trying to eat, so the problem isn't just hunger that needs to be satisfied right away with a bottle instead of having to work for it with a breast. Another thing: he tries to find the breast sometimes when we're bottle-feeding him and turns away from the bottle toward what he probably thinks is the breast, and yet when I'm trying to breastfeed him he looks for the bottle and cries, yells and screams for it until he's red all over.


What bothers me is that it means a lot to Jack that I breastfeed Finn and I thought it was better for him too but now I'm not sure because I'm causing him a lot of distress trying to feed him. Either Finnegan is not hungry orhe's too hungry or he just doesn't want to.

When it seems no one understands you no matter what you do, or how much you open up to people. It's as if, no matter what I do, my loneliness won't go away. I'm praying for it to leave, but I don't really believe it's going to. Not too much anyway...I want it to, but then I am dependent on it, so I can absorb myself in other things. Such as writing, video making, martial arts, spirituality, and finding my place.

I want people in my life, I just don't want to have to deal with them trying to help me when I don't need it.

is it that bad? cold is better than heat and dont you ever forget that. this summer i almost died it was so hot. winter weather feels alot better than heat. what do i hate in my life right now? not having enough money. i'd like to get my baby set