Hey. Read these boards for months...and only just decided to register as Im on a major downer tonight and maybe if i get some facts about me out in the open...i might feel a tiny bit better.
So here we go:
I have aspergers, but I dont like people knowing.
I beleive I am a social ret*d.
I swear far too much.
I think I am extremely depressed, and I put on a happy face to fool others aswel as myself.
I play my Xbox too much, as its the only thing that takes me away from reality.
I dont really have any friends that I would consider true friends.
I am easily obsessed by things.
If I want something, I want it now...I can be very impatient.
I crave drugs thats I havent even done before. Bud wasnt enough.
Im sure that everybody is out to hurt me in someway.
Girls enjoy breaking my heart and walking all over me.
Girlfriend? What girlfriend.
I would do anything to be normal.
I suffer from lack of motivation.
I have considered suicide, lots and lots of times, but I dont think I would ever have the balls to do it.
Nobody understands what is going on in my head, and nobody understands why I do the things I do.
I used to be violent, and had an addiction to crime & destruction. I am pass this, but still crave it occasionally.
I fall in love easily, or atleast I think I do.
I fear social situations, because I have no social skills. Except on a one to one with somebody I feel I know well.
I cannot get addicted to smoking. Smoking helps me, and I smoke alot. But i stop sometimes stop and can for aslong as I like.
I am a "high achiever".
Since I was a child I have had multiple personalities...but theyre all in my head and I dont tell anybody. I used to think it was just childish imaginary games, but Im nearly 18 and I still do it.
Most of my "friends" are younger than me, I cant relate well to people my age.
Im in love with someone who acts like they dont care half the time.
I dont drink because Im afraid of what I might do.
I crave violence, and sometimes I sicken myself by it.
I like to make people laugh.
I am obsessed with money, always calculating and always planning ahead.
Im too tired to think of anymore. I doubt anyone even reads the whole list, I dont blame ya. But I feel slightly better now because putting things into words helps me see my problems. Theres hell of alot more than that, but as I said im tired.
Maybe I will stick around these boards, if theres people here who like to talk.
=)
Last edited by Obsessed on 07 Feb 2009, 9:31 pm, edited 1 time in total.
07 Feb 2009, 9:21 pm
