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I used to come to this forum quite often, under a different user-name.

I left a while ago as a had utterly lost it. I couldn't cope with human contact anymore, and this place was bringing out the worst in me.

A lot happened to me after that. I was hospitalized for a while, and I'm back on medication which is stabilizing me to some extent.

I'm incredibly alone right now. Luckily, I have one good friend, but he himself has pretty terrible problems and I don't want to burden him with mine.

I've been diagnosed as paranoid schizophrenic.

I get scared when people are kind to me, anticipating their inevitable realization that I'm not worth the effort.

I'm in love with a comic book character, and my obsession with him has ruined my life.

I need someone to talk to. I desperately need someone to talk to.

Sorry you feel like this, sounds like a vicious circle.

Don't know how much use I'd be, but you're welcome to write to me if you want.

I see you like w1k, I have an account over there but haven't entered anything very recently.

i feel sorry for you... Now that you mention it, i also get paranoid when someone does something nice to me for the exact same reason

going to a hard time too now

Last edited by UndercoverAlien on 28 Feb 2009, 11:23 am, edited 1 time in total.

Kind of like having to choose between burning alive and freezing to death. I hate that too.

Hey, can a comic book character ditch you at the mall or shout you out at a party. pretty easy to fall in love with something with no flaws. Pretty understandable.

If you do have a friend he could always use someone to b***h to-- unless he's one of those types who likes to kick up a little drama, they're always a bit much for me.

First off I just want to say I LOVE YOUR PROFILE PICTURE OF Johnny The Homocide Maniac. I'm a HUGE Invader Zim Fan myself!

Anyways, I know how you feel. I was a member here with a different user name back in 2007 or so. Then I had a crush on an Aspie at College, only problem was I had a crush on her but she didn't have one on me at it was hard to tell her so I got all upset because I couldn't reconize if she liked me or not. So there was a pressure stress issue between us and I fell into depression for about 6 months and slowly returned to WrongPlanet in 2008. But everythings okay now, we are still good friends and chat on the phone a few times per month and also on Facebook. So yeah, I went through depression plus I discovered that I was Gender-Queer so I now identify as Androgyne / Bigender and I love women who identify as Masculine (Binary terms: Women who look, dress, talk, and behave just like men). And I thought that all women were secretly Masculine. I had lots to learn and needed to educate myself for quite awhile.
But anyways, I know where your coming from.

My #1 friend has high funtioning Autism but can't help me with my life problems. He's too busy chatting about his interests.

And I totally noticed that you have a crush on a Comic Book Character. Don't worry, your not alone. SO AM I! TANK GIRL! (notice on my profile picture right next to FLCL's Haruko). And it's kind of ruinned my life as well. LOL Constaintly researching Women who identify as Masculine and the ENTP personality type in order to make an estiment of the question "Is there really a Tank Girl?". By this Social Science, it's quite possible!

It's nice to find someone who has something in common.

email me at [email protected] if you ever want to chat.

Plus you can find my Facebook, "Eric Crooks". I'm the Androgynous guy with the green stripped Ernie shirt. LOL

First off Welcome Back!

Sorry this happened to you. I think for me this forum and my support group have saved me from my crazy cycle. It use to get real bad and I know what it's like to have to go through an ongoing battle of hospitalizations and being the guinea pig when it comes to meds. Mine were mostly suicidal attempts.

Hope you keep in touch. I think this forum has taught me a lot of how to control some of the emotional issues I have. I use to get real defensive....still do from time to time but have come to use people as learning tools rather than just enemies.

Being unique doesn't make you crazy it's what you don't know that does. So there's nothing wrong with having an "obsession" for something or what I'd like to call a niche. I learned you can turn that niche into something incredible once you start accepting that part and finding a way to share or use it in a way that gives you some recognition or notoriety. You'll find people will see that spark once you've learned to accept and accomplish it.

Anyway, no one's perfect and I think we're all mad...it's just that some people are good at hiding it than others.

Hi Greeblig, I don't know what to say---but I want to try to help. I remember one time getting so fascinated with something that it sort of took over my life. Time management could be an answer here. Budget the amount of time you spend with the obsession/interest of this comic book character. I don't know if you should do away with the obession all together because it is probably an enjoyable interest for you. I believe that if you take interests away, you lose some of yourself in the process. But at the same time, you must budget the time you spend on those interests.

Being autistic, I am very object oriented. Socializing is not my thing---it never has been. I find happiness in my collections of things that I can share with my family and others. For example, I love music. I used to collect synthesizers until I got over 30 of them. Then, I started using them to play publicly in church, restaurants, etc. That interest became one that I could share with others. The same thing with my collection of magic tricks and illusions. I began giving magic shows. The neat thing here was that I still didn't have to socialize because I was seperated from the audience. Today, I am beginning a music ministry on the hammered and mountain dulcimers---another of my interests. I find that being able to share interests in that manner is uplifting and meaningful. Perhaps you could take interest(s) of yours and do something similar. Maybe you could create your own comic book character and publish a comic book. And if you can't sell it to some big publisher, you could always print it out on a copier and let your family/friends/whoever enjoy it.

I don't know if anything here helps you or not. But I do want to help. Please respond to me in the private messenger/or on here in this thread---if you want to talk to me about your problem. I seriously want to help.

ditto to glider18's suggestions.
have you tried to do some comics yourself? maybe turn your interest into something fun and enjoy it.

take care and i hope you get through ok.