Hey there guys. I'm Brittney also known as Bit or Briya. Your choice. Um...I have pretty much come here at the end of my rope. I'm hoping I can find some kind of peace and friendship here with you all. So I guess I'll start telling about myself and hopefully I'm not long winded.
I'm a caring warm person who loves to have fun from time to time and at other times just like to be caved up in my room on my computer. I love a variety of things but just to name a few: dancing (love reacting and making up dances), anime (love Nanoha, Fruits Basket, Inuyasha, Shugo Chara etc.) cartoons (my favorite to date is Ben 10 for some odd reason 0.o) Singing, Writing (I've been writing since I was 11 and am still going strong) Eating (yeah baby! bring on the ramen!) and I am a huge cuddlebug and have to have a hug to go strong in my day. I know I have more but as time goes by and I get more friends here...you'll get to know me better.
Now on to the venting part...telling about my aspergers. I was diagnosed when I was about 13 going through life with other things like ADD and depression and of course it was only fitting to have aspergers on the list. I didn't do too well with any one of my condition especially my aspergers because I just wanted to be normal in my life. I didn't understand and to this day still don't understand why it was just me in my whole family that had to be different. Why I'm the only one that my family looks at wierdly. I am the person who is always to myself in my family...if not to myself, hanging out with the teenagers in my family or the kids. What they don't understand is that I can't strike up a conversation with the adults in my family even though, I'm about to be 24 myself. Its hard and awkward and even harder to explain why I do it.
It's gotten to the point where changes rule my life. Just even one bit of change in my well planned schedule is enough to send me throught the roof in anger or collasped on the ground in tears. I hope that I'm not the only one with that problem. Cause...that would suck.
Hehe. So after having my most recent meltdown today...I came here to find some kind of release and hopefully to find myself; accept myself and be proud of what I am. I am happy to be here and know this is a great step in my path.
So..that's it for now. I hope to talk to you guys soon!
Briya
We accept your ADD, Depression, Melt Downs, the whole nine yards. We still love you and we are sooooo proud of you coming out like that. This IS a great step and you've already come a long way. Feeling "hard and awkward" sucks and we have felt like that and we would not wish it to our worst enemies. It is OK to collapse on the ground with tears, some of us do much more antisocial and embarrassing during melt downs.