My intolerance for drugs
I do drink. And I have a fairly high tolerance. However, I have never "lost control" with alchohol, nor do I have any desire to do so. On the very rare occasion I over indulge I view it as a bad thing, even when I am drunk. Other than alchohol (and I suppose caffine) I have no tolerance for any drug. I find the loss of self control and the lose of my sense of reality absolutly unbearable. I am completley in the dark as to how people enjoy marijuana (perhaps it effects them differently) or any other mind altering drug. Do most of you feel the same way?
I keep building up a tolerance to psychiatric drugs, and after a while either my meds have to be changed or the dose has to be increased. Celexa is the one that worked for me the longest... 7 months! The antipsychotics worked on me for about 2 months for each antipsychotic, except for the Risperdal, which worked for like 5 months, and I only went off it due to side effects, not because it didn't work, and the Seroquel and Haldol... I went off them due to side effects, not due to them not working, and the loxapine, which I quit because I didn't need it anymore, and the Abilify. But the Zyprexa and Geodon worked on me for about 2 months each. The Abilify didn't work at 15 mg but worked at 20 mg. And I went off it because I ran out and was in a different country and there was no way of getting any.
Anyway, Celexa at 10mg made me hypomanic from day 1, then the side effect wore off after half a day, so I took the other half of the pill, and then I was still the same way on 20mg and even more so on 40. My current shrink put me on 10mg of loxapine when supposedly, most people who are on it are on 50-250 mg. Then, for no reason, he added 5 mg and then, when I was complaining about needing more he added a whole 5 mg to my dosage! *gasp* My mother thinks it's because he doesn't think I'm that crazy. I don't know about that. Maybe he heard that people with ASDs are sensitive to meds, or maybe he just gives me meds so that he won't be legally liable... after all, he was very adamant about me taking them... even tho my boyfriend's shrink apparently told him that's a negligable dose.